Thoughts on a Girl

I have a crush...on a girl. She'll be two soon and I can hardly believe it. She's got lots of personality, which sometimes drives me crazy but mostly makes me laugh. Last night, her personality was such that she didn't want to listen to anything I said. She wanted to do just the opposite. She did that up until I realized that: 1. I was with her every day for 17 days in a row, and then I suddenly was gone one morning when she woke up and 2. Maybe she missed me and was trying to tell me in a way that she knew how. Before I had this epiphany, I spoke harshly to her, trying to rebuke her (my Bible study talk coming out) for what she was doing (or not doing). My moment of clarity was followed by an overwhelming feeling of guilt. I felt like I was the worst mom in the history of moms. So we went in her room for the rest of my awake time and talked about toys while she played and I sewed some buttons on a sweater. After Isaac put her in her crib I snuck in for one more snuggle, but decided rather to snatch her up and take her to my bed, where we hid under the covers and waited for Papa to come in so we could surprise him. He was surprised. And Sophia loved surprising him. Then we got to snuggle a little more before I put her back in her crib. :)

I love that she's so forgiving even though I mess up ALL THE TIME. I love that she copies me by saying "shoot" when she drops something. And that sometimes, when she gets up from her nap she realizes she's still tired and asks to be put back in her crib for some "more night-night". I love that she's a laugher and a smiler. And I love that she loves me back.